This is hard because I can think of several things, but when I REALLY think about it, I dont want to really forget, because I learned from them all!!!
Ok..........I GOT ONE I WOULD LOVE TO FORGET!!!!
I've been unemployeed one other time in my life & it was bad too....I was out of work for three months. But this time is worse!!! I am so scared!!! I'm afraid with the economy it will take me forever to find something!! I cant sleep at night because my mind races. worried about the bills...let alone, just anything extra!!! I dont have the money to cover all the bills, how can I afford to do something as simple as buy Asia something she needs. I had recently paid all my credit cards off & now, they are close to maxxed out again just because I need shit!!! LIKE GAS!!!!
I do believe in my heart that God is taking me down yet another path, to learn, to grow, to figure something out but I cant lie, it's one of the hardest times I have EVER had!!! I think it is because I was finally doing pretty good, had money saved, could buy things when I wanted them. Made good money. was about to get a $4000 bonus!!!!!!!! $4000!!!!!! I had a goal......I truly wanted to buy just a small house, on my own. A HOME Asia & I could call our own!!! And I was going to use that as a down payment. I was talking to a realtor, a mortgage officer....I could see it in my close future!!! I had cleaned up my credit, my credit score was good!!! And now I am TERRIFIED that it will get bad again!!!
I have applied for over 60 jobs!!!! I've got nothing back!! I sit in this house & go insane!!! I dont sleep right at all!! My schedule is SO screwed up!! Some days I dont get out of bed till 2!! TODAY!! I woke up at 4!!!! I missed the beautiful day! But again, where am I going???? Driving around wasting gas?? Its like, why bother!!! I HATE BEING NEGATIVE!! That is not me!!!! But this has really thrown me for a loop!! I will keep the faith.......because at the end of the day, things could always be worse!
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