Friday, March 25, 2011

Day 13

- A picture of your favorite band or artist.


I really do love a lot of music but my GIRL is Alicia Keys!!! I think she is simply amazing!! So talented, so humble, so beautiful and has just this great spirit!!!



Day 12

A picture of something you love.


Laying poolside!!!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE just basking in the sun. It instantly makes me happy!!!!! OMG just the thought of simply laying by my pool, just here at my apartment makes me smile!!! EVERY weekend day you will find me there!! ALL day!!!! I'm so bad, as soon as the pool opens, I go & lay out my towels to claim at least 3 chairs because I know every weekend at least my mom & one friend will join me!!!! :)

Day 11 -

A picture of something you hate.



I HATE Racism!!! It just makes me so mad I cant even put it into words!!! And the fact that it still exists today is absurd!!!!!!!!!








""Choose your friends by their character and your socks by their color. Choosing your socks by their character makes no sense, and choosing your friends by their color is unthinkable.""

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Day 10

- A picture of the person you do the silliest things with.


This would hands down be heather, Steph & Asia!!! Oh my the fun we have had!!! The drive by water ballons, the prank calls, dress up at Biggs....just to say a few. There have been MANY a day they are the ONLY ones that have lifted my spirit.

God, I love you girls!!!!!!!!!!!



Monday, March 21, 2011

Day 09

- A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.



Many people have gotten me through so much. My mother, my daddy, Heather, Stephanie, my aunt Karen, Sheawn, my grandparents (even though they are no longer here, I still speak to them in hard times & I swear they help me)many friends, a lot of people, I've been blessed to have in my corner. But the #1 person who has gotten me through the most is my baby girl. She is my reason for living. Everything I want or think of doing, is because of her. She has humbled me in so many ways. But she is my all, my number one & at times, I feel my only reason to keep going!!!


Day 08

A picture that makes you laugh.

This picture makes me roll!!!!! Because this guy at the bar, Lipstick Paul was SERIOUS!! He dressed like this & lives like this & he didnt give a fuck!!! It's just hilarious!! It was also a very fun night!!!


Day 07

A picture of your most treasured item.

Ok, since it says item, I think of that as a possession.....not a person. So my most treasured item would HAVE to be my cell!!! Its like my right arm! I MUST have it at all times!!!!!!!!!

Friday, March 18, 2011

day 6

Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.






Believe it or not, I'd LOVE to trade places with a man for a day....a hot one at that!!! LOL!!! Just to see how the hell the really think!!!! Because I can not & do not think I will EVER understand them!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Day 05

A picture of your favorite memory.





This is Just ONE of soooooooooo many!!! But I LOVE this picture becaue it is my daddy, my baby & my first dog, Hassem, at my fist house!! That I owned! We had soooo many good memories there!! Bday partys, holidays, BBQ's, just being our own family!! I really miss these days sometimes

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Day 04

A picture of something you wish you could forget.


This is hard because I can think of several things, but when I REALLY think about it, I dont want to really forget, because I learned from them all!!!

Ok..........I GOT ONE I WOULD LOVE TO FORGET!!!!




I've been unemployeed one other time in my life & it was bad too....I was out of work for three months. But this time is worse!!! I am so scared!!! I'm afraid with the economy it will take me forever to find something!! I cant sleep at night because my mind races. worried about the bills...let alone, just anything extra!!! I dont have the money to cover all the bills, how can I afford to do something as simple as buy Asia something she needs. I had recently paid all my credit cards off & now, they are close to maxxed out again just because I need shit!!! LIKE GAS!!!!
I do believe in my heart that God is taking me down yet another path, to learn, to grow, to figure something out but I cant lie, it's one of the hardest times I have EVER had!!! I think it is because I was finally doing pretty good, had money saved, could buy things when I wanted them. Made good money. was about to get a $4000 bonus!!!!!!!! $4000!!!!!! I had a goal......I truly wanted to buy just a small house, on my own. A HOME Asia & I could call our own!!! And I was going to use that as a down payment. I was talking to a realtor, a mortgage officer....I could see it in my close future!!! I had cleaned up my credit, my credit score was good!!! And now I am TERRIFIED that it will get bad again!!!
I have applied for over 60 jobs!!!! I've got nothing back!! I sit in this house & go insane!!! I dont sleep right at all!! My schedule is SO screwed up!! Some days I dont get out of bed till 2!! TODAY!! I woke up at 4!!!! I missed the beautiful day! But again, where am I going???? Driving around wasting gas?? Its like, why bother!!! I HATE BEING NEGATIVE!! That is not me!!!! But this has really thrown me for a loop!! I will keep the faith.......because at the end of the day, things could always be worse!

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Day 3


Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.

Ok....I'm really not a HUGE TV person, but I LOVE certain reality shows like the Real housewive series, intervention, lots of shows on A&E but i have to say my FAVORITE is desperate housewives. I DVR it & if for some reason it doesnt record, I will sit at the computer & watch the episode online!!! LOL! AND when there isnt an episode on, I get seriously upset!!!!

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Day 2


A picture of you and the person you used to be close with
This is a horrid pis oc me, but anyway!!!! Tany Thomas was my best friend from the time I was 6 years old! We were always together!!!! Shared SOOO many memories!!! Till just about 5 years ago. i felt like once she married her current husband, she totally devoted everything in her to him. she doesnt even see family much. It makes me sad because we shared everything!! Through it all, IF I were to ever get to spend time with her, it would be like I never missed a minute....I really miss her

Monday, March 14, 2011

Day one





1. I am a mother, to a beautiful, amazing 15 year old daughter
2. I lost my job a month & a 10 days ago & I'm scared shitless
3. I am slowly getting depressed but fighting with everything in my soul to not let it take me over.
4. I can count on less then 2 hands, my true friends & I'm TOTALLY ok with that.
5. I consider my cousins Heather & Stephanie my sisters!!!
6. I'm actually more diverse in music then people think, I love any music I can feel....that speaks to me.
7. I want to own boxers again, they are my favorite dog in the world!!
8. I truly, in my heart believe my aunt Karen is an angel on Earth.
9. I LOVE heels!!! The higher the better!!!
10. I LOVE bright colors! They make me feel pretty
11. I'm an only child, and it scares me that my parents are getting older. I worry when something happens to them, I will have no one to share the burden with
12. I am obsessed with plug ins. I LOVE when I can smell them as soon as i walk in my house. And when I smell them in the hallway before I even open my door, I smile. LOL!!!
13. I feel like I currently do not get the love & attention the way I should in my current realtionship
14. I hold ALOT in, I'm not sure why, but I'm working on it.
15. i take something to help me sleep every single night

30 days............

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts.
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you used to be close with.
Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.
Day 04 - A picture of something you wish you could forget.
Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory.
Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.
Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item.
Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh.
Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.
Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the silliest things with.
Day 11 - A picture of something you hate.
Day 12 - A picture of something you love.
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist.
Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.
Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.
Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you.
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.
Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity.
Day 19 - A picture of you when you were little.
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.
Day 21 - A picture of your favorite night .
Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at.
Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book.
Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change.
Day 25 - A picture of your favorite day.
Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you.
Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member.
Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of.
Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile.
Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss.

Asia'spoem 3142011

Past tense was easy, growing up so sleek
Innocent was I & I was it
Crying didn’t make any sense
Holding hands with a man, I love so deeply
Thought he would never leave me
Open handed in the sand, left me for a woman who could never understand
Took the key to my heart & broke it apart
Took my innocence for pleasure & left me in the dark
My beautiful best friend, so smart, street & book
It’s like she hit you with a hook
Look, look…beauty is her name
I’ll take her hand, walk in our lane
I’ll never forget our struggle
Will never admit, worried about who’s gonna pay the rent.

Present is hard
Perfect is not me, flawless we should be
Scared of the world, but won’t let it defeat me
Mad, sad, glad
You being here isn’t that bad
Found a new man to call dad
Tall, white hair, white skin, blue eyes…..perfect 10
Grandpa is the man
Open your arms & reach me till the never-end

Future is in our hands, smiling so bright, you would think I was light
Let’s make a heart, don’t tear it apart
L O V E
ME ME
Passion for ballet, you told me to do it
My dreams are her dreams
Anything I want to be, her words are pursue it